So, if anyone’s wondering why they haven’t seen me lately, it’s because I lost my cable connection Thursday morning. No idea when I might get it back, either. I’m broke, and it’ll be a touch on the spendy side.
I’ve had a real hankering to play Master of Orion 2 lately, my appetite apparently unsatisfied by winning three different ways with stock Alkari in an “Impossible” game. Unfortunately, while two of the systems at my house have the game installed and can, in theory, run it, neither has been especially willing to.
The one apparently has a bad video card. It’s a strange, intermittent failure and apparently causes the system to lock. This is the one I beat that Alkari game on. Some days it behaves. Some days it doesn’t. The other one is my Kubuntu machine, running the game under Wine. For some reason I don’t understand, the game simply freezes from time to time.
I might try it on my dad’s machine, but that horrible thing he uses for a mouse has been dissuading me. The only other system I have is Psi, and it’s a macinslosh running Linux (which means that Wine isn’t an option.)
Sigh. When the universe hates you, it seems it REALLY hates you.
My poor car is dead again. My understanding (and I’m not very knowledgeable when it comes to internal-combustion engines, mind you) is that the vehicle has either a blown head gasket or a cracked head. At this time, I don’t know which, so I don’t even know how much it’ll cost to repair. Suckage.
It’s been hot as hell around here. My house is an oven. Consequently, I got all of jack and shit done this week. I had seriously hoped to get the lawn mowed or get my job search started or at least learn how to use PHP and SQL well enough to hack together the Cypress Gardens website, but it’s just been too damn hot, and me with minimal air conditioning.
Alison and I actually may be getting back together. The only good thing about last weekend’s “storm” is that Alison has promised me a number of things, one of which (and possibly most important) is that she’s going to (try to) get over Jonathan. Most of the issues there seem to have been resolved, and I couldn’t be happier, except that I feel bad for having hurt her so deeply. I wish I could have found another way.
Friday I told a very dear friend of mine that I didn’t want to deal with her for a while.
I’ve been exerting every resource I have for so long to try to help her that I had looked up and realised that I didn’t have a life anymore. Worse, I didn’t really seem to be helping. Fundamental issues remained unresolved and I was finally just at a loss for what to do. I was mentally, physically, financially, and emotionally exhausted and I need time to recover.
I was hoping removing myself from the picture would compel her to get help from people more able than myself. Her parents. The state. Another friend, supposing she has any left. Unfortunately, that doesn’t seem to be happening, and though it’s calm right now, I don’t feel it can stay that way for long.