Monthly Archives: October 2007

The end of hope

I know what the problem with the Burgundy Beast is now. Its head gasket was blown and the cylinder head was cracked. This will be an expensive repair, but still less than replacing it altogether.

Does everyone remember how hopeful I was back in July? I find I have now lost all capacity for hope. Every promise she made to me is broken and my life grows increasingly more difficult on that account. I don’t want to abandon her again. I swore I wouldn’t, but I don’t know if I have a choice. Her obsession is destroying my life, and I can’t help her if she doesn’t want it.